I am in pursuit of more faith and hope in the world. The past four years have been absolutely brutal on my mental health. While many blessings have occurred during this time, I am now facing the reality of what I have become: toxic and blackpilled. This is not the person I wanted to become, but they made me this way.

Being chained to Twitter for four years for both work and play, making it my identity, has played a major role in my current state. The bright side of being in the depths is that when you look up, you can see light. No matter how faint, there is light. This post isn’t a sad one. This is me telling you that I am moving towards the light.

Through the toxicity, I found meaning, I found purpose, I found my health, and I found Christ. And that is a beautiful thing. The one thing that is lacking in this hero’s journey is my spirit. My spirit is dark, but I realize it. My wife and kids notice my happiness has declined, and sure, financials don’t make things easier, but choosing to stay in the dark is no way to live.

For this reason, I am choosing to detoxify my life. I have unsubscribed from 75 newsletters, unfollowed 2000 accounts on Twitter, and I am actively trying to be more positive. I used to open conversations with negativity and talk about bleak topics, but now I bite my tongue. If I do slip, I notice it and correct myself.

I am not saying I am now perfect; I am just trying to move up and to the right.